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AMC--Chapter Forty-Six

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AMC--Chapter Forty-Six

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Well, after the disaster that was last week--up to and including last week's chapter--I wasn't sure how this week's posting was going to turn out. In fact, I put off even reading this chapter until yesterday afternoon. If it sucked...I was going to skip a week. Luckily, it wasn't nearly as bad as last week's chapter, so here it is.

It's still rough; there are still sections that I want to add and sections that need tinkering. This whole Macalaurë section is in for an overhaul and the revised result will likely bear little resemblance to what I am posting now, in that the chapters will be divided differently. But this is a first draft for a reason.

This chapter contains a wee bit of sexuality but nothing too crazy, so I'm keeping it at a happy, healthy general rating.


Chapter Forty-Six
Macalaurë


The weeks are a colorful rush after that, passing breathlessly, with a moment expiring before I have adequately prepared for the next. I, who am used to lying about the house, playing my harp and writing music in my leisure, am suddenly required to hustle, rushing from place to place to be on time for lessons or to sit for recitals. At midday, I squeeze the moments at either side of the noon hour aside to make time for Vingarië, and we eat together by the fountain beside the music school. My harp lies forgotten at my side and her flute lies forgotten at hers; we eat Telerin meals that we buy from vendors in exchange for pearls and gems, and we talk with food in our mouths, for the hour is short and as many things must be fit into a moment as possible. She laughs and sprays me with wine and blushes and wipes my face with her handkerchief, and I laugh and choke on my salmon wrap, and when we both recover, she says, “If we have until the ending of the world to live, then why must we rush so?” and it is an answer I cannot give but makes my heart quiver fearfully anyway.

Who says we have until the world’s ending?

I shake my head. It is as though Laurelin had dimmed for a moment, but that cannot be. I blink and smile and force myself to forget it.

My lessons are harder than I’d expected. My tutor is not willing to settle for what I am able to do but constantly demands more of me. When I play a certain complex melody at the proper tempo, he increases the tempo again, and my hands are reduced to feeling as though the muscles in my fingers are bunched into knots, and I know by the pinched expression on my tutor’s face that he is not pleased.

At our midday meal that day, Vingarië reassures me, “No one can please him,” for she had a friend who studied the harp with him and is now renowned as one of the most skilled of our cohort in Alqualondë. “Still, he complains about her technique; you would think she’d learned the harp sitting in the gutter, plucking tentacles strung in a conch shell!”

“One of the most renowned, you say?” I ask, feeling a pinch of jealous curiosity to know the one who exceeds me in skill.

“Well,” says Vingarië, swallowing her food before answering, “she was the most renowned. Then, of course, you came along.”

I laugh and Vingarië looks at me with confusion, as though she doesn’t understand what is so funny.

Daily, I have theory and history lessons with other students from the school—Vingarië is among their numbers, but the instructor is careful to keep us across the room from each other, perhaps having observed our midday trysts at the fountain—and I dread those two hours of tedium, for they invoke more memories of mathematics and lore, first with my father and then with Nelyo, than I care to recall in Alqualondë, far from our house in Tirion, where I hoped such negativity could be forgotten. Here, all of the lessons I had done in the months before, preparing for this month, are put on display, deconstructed, and my faults flaunted to the group. Of course, everyone’s work endures similar scrutiny, but as the only Noldo in the room, I feel as though the gazes and the expectations are heavier upon me, when my name is called, than when one of the Telerin students—or even Vingarië, a half-Noldo—is placed in the spotlight.

Evening meals I take with Olwë. He’d made the offer during our first days here, to both Nelyo and me, and there had been a hollow longing in his eyes. “I am lonely with my wife and my children all so far away,” he’d confessed to me one night, after many glasses of wine, for his wife is with my aunt Eärwen in Tirion, awaiting the birth of her first child, and Olwë’s two sons have sailed to the south of Aman to enjoy the superior propensity of fish there.

Sometimes, Nelyo joins us, but usually he pleads out of it by reason of having to study, or suppertime arrives and Nelyo simply doesn’t appear, and King Olwë and I begin eating and do not mention it. Telerin customs are relaxed when compared to ours, and perhaps that is the reason for Olwë’s silence, but I know Nelyo, and it is not like him to be so inconsiderate, to ignore an invitation without making his excuses to our host.

I do not see Nelyo much. Usually, when I return late at night, exhausted, from having bid Vingarië a good night (which never takes less than two hours), he is studying by lamplight. He will pause to ask me questions about my studies, about Vingarië, while I undress and collapse into bed, and more often than not, I fall asleep while answering. I leave the covers off of my body in an effort to stave off sleep—I miss my brother and the conversations we used to have that would see the arrival of morning with the feeling that no more than an hour had passed—but the sound of the sea is hypnotizing, and before I realize what has happened, I feel Nelyo’s practiced hands tucking the coverlet around me and kissing my forehead, and then I am awake, the Trees are mingling, and it is time to begin another day.

Once, I’d seen Nelyo in the square as I sat with Vingarië, eating my midday meal. The streets had been crowded, but if my brother is easily spotted in Tirion, then he is impossible to miss in Alqualondë. He’d stood a head taller than the tallest of the Teleri swarming around him, and his hair had blazed like fire in the midday brilliance. Vingarië had been speaking about some atrocity committed by her brothers, and I’d caught Nelyo’s gaze and opened my mouth to call out to him, to invite us to join us—for he has yet to be formally introduced to Vingarië—but he’d raised his hand by his hip in greeting, fluttering his fingers at me, and quickly looked away, slipping into the crowd and somehow had managed to disappear among the diminutive, silver-haired Teleri.

That night, when I’d returned home, I’d meant to mention it. I’d opened my mouth, and the words had sat like weights upon my tongue, ready to tumble from my mouth, but something made my teeth click shut, some glimmer in Nelyo’s eyes that begged me, please do not ask why I ignored you.

And so I’d said nothing. I’d allowed him to ask whether I was being treated better in my theory lecture and told him my dismaying tale of the day, about being caught daydreaming when I was supposed to be pondering chord progressions, and he’d groaned and made the appropriate comments, and my heavy eyes had dropped shut, and the next thing I’d known, I’d felt his hands tucking the blankets around me. Then my eyes had opened and it had been morning. Time to begin again.

I ask sometimes after his lessons, but he is always vague and quickly changes the subject back to my studies and my romancing of Vingarië, laughing perhaps too loudly and smiling too brightly at my jokes to fool me, who knows him best of anyone in the world.
~oOo~

I meet Vingarië by the fountain, at our accustomed time, and her smile is brighter than usual. She skips into my arms, squeezes my neck in a hug, and plants a kiss on my cheek with more enthusiasm than usual, and I back up and grin warily. “What’s the celebration?” I ask.

“My father has returned!” she chortles.

And so that day’s theory lecture is ruined, and I am caught at unawares twice during questioning. In the mire of lessons and lectures and my attempts at romance, I had forgotten about Vingarië’s father and my plans to ask formally for his blessing of our courtship. Sitting in lecture—the day is unusually hot, and a fly keeps buzzing around my head, as though trying to further distract my attention from the lecture—I ponder the wisdom of my plans. He is a Teler. The courtship rituals of the Teleri—even those of the court—are far more relaxed than those of the Noldor. Noldorin children are expected to ask for the blessings of their parents. The Teleri, who’d lived lawlessly much longer in the Hither Lands than we did, place little value on such formalities. Still, I am of the Noldor. A Noldo of the court. A descendent of the High King. I must be expected to uphold our traditions, not to use the convenience of the Telerin customs to escape my discomfort.

“Macalaurë?” the instructor calls. He is pointing to a passage of music drawn on the slate at the front of the room. It means nothing to me. After three ticks of uncomfortable silence, he turns to someone else for the answer, but his eyes come back to me shortly after, full of disappointment.

King Olwë is dining with his lords this night, and so I take my meal with Nelyo, on our balcony. He is rumpled and unfocused in the way of one whose sole conversation this day has been with books. He’d braided his hair in the morning, but the braids are coming undone on one side, and he looks crooked, skewed. There are spots of ink on his lips that would annoy Atar, and I resist the urge to blot them away with my napkin. They will be washed away by wine soon enough.

We eat in near silence. Several times, he tries to start a conversation, but my replies are uninspired, and he is not motivated to maintain the conversation, and so we fall into silence again and again. I am busy with my own thoughts this night; what weighs upon the mind of my brother this night, I do not know.

Vingarië is home with her father and her brothers, enjoying a supper together, and so I remain in our room with Nelyo. He settles onto his bed after supper with a book of history held open with one hand while the other hand slowly unwinds his braids, allowing his hair to spill over his shoulders and onto the pages of his book, where he flips it away with practiced annoyance.

After a half-hour or so of reading, he looks up, and surprise lights his silver eyes. “You are still here?” he asks, as though I am a figment of his imagination, a construction born of reading for too many hours without a reprieve.

“Yes,” I say. I am working on my theory lessons for the next day, determined to make up for my poor showing today, and trying to force thoughts of Vingarië’s father from my mind. “I have much to do for theory lecture.”

He smirks with amusement. “Enough to forsake the lovely Vingarië?”

I swallow. Something in my throat clicks; I open my mouth, but in my mind, where there should be words, there is only music, a crashing cacophony of sound, and I sit with my mouth open for a long time without speaking.

The amusement drops from Nelyo’s face. Immediately, he is on his feet, crossing the room to my bed. I am held in the half-circle of his left arm, as though by his superior size and strength, he can protect me from something. But what? I am here; the protection I fear I need is from myself.

“What is it, Macalaurë? Did you have a row? Did you—” He doesn’t want to say “split up,” but I feel the word as keenly on the tip of his tongue as though it were on my own. That’s what people have been saying of him and Annawendë: They split up in Formenos. Maidens in Tirion have taken to smiling at him with guilty hope, but Nelyo averts his eyes in the way of us Fëanorians: Our faces do not fall when we are shamed but lift, in pride.

“No, no,” I assure him. “Nothing like that. It’s just—”

Tears sting my eyes. I am overtaken by alarm and surprise. Why am I crying? I imagine my heavy accent, the ponderous words of my plea, in the home of Vingarië’s Telerin father. Suddenly, I feel large and graceless, with awkward, graceless customs. Suddenly, I feel very Noldorin.

Nelyo fumbles in the deep pocket of his robes and extracts a handkerchief. It is spotty with ink, but I raise my face to him and let him blot away my tears.

“You are so beautiful, Macalaurë,” he tells me. “Do you know how beautiful you are?”

“No, I am not,” I say in a thick voice. “I do not belong here. I should not have come.”

Where do I belong? If not in the House of Fëanaro—the father of strong, capable, skilled sons, like my brothers—than surely with the Teleri. But my worthlessness here too has been proven, many times, every time I fumble an answer in lecture that I should easily know—after all, I am a Noldo, and we are the people who invented titles to reward our own skill; we are the people who are unaware of the Light of the Trees on some days, so closed are we in our libraries and workshops—and it is further proven as I walk like a large, gangly beast beside petite and musical Telerin girl that I love.

It seems that I belong nowhere. Perhaps I should wander, as do the great bards of lore, with nothing but my harp and the clothes upon my body, singing hymns to the sea.

As though he perceives the dire and melodramatic nature of my thoughts, Nelyo squeezes me tighter. He rests his forehead against my temple; his breath tickles my ear. “I always think it a shame, Macalaurë, that you never get to hear yourself sing. That you never get to sit where I sit, off the stage, and watch the light on your face when you raise your voice in song. That you never feel the way your songs ripple against the very substance of our spirits, as though it is Eru—and not one of his children—who sings to us.

“No one belongs here more than you, Macalaurë.”

I do not know what to say, and so I lift my arms and put them around him also, pressing my face into the warm hair that tumbles against his neck, and we hold each other for a long time.

It is I who draw away first. Always, it is I.

“So,” says Nelyo brightly, putting my hair behind my ears, “what is the problem then? That has caused you to stay here this night? It is not your insecurity in your lectures that causes you to seek my arms instead of those of your very lovely Vingarië.”

I laugh. “No, it is not. She is not available this night. Her father has returned from the South Sea.”

“Oh?”

“Yes. And so I—” I look at him, hoping he will understand where my words are going, but his brow remains lifted and his eyes expectant. “I foolishly told her that I would like to ask for his blessing of our courtship.”

“Foolishly? There is nothing foolish about that. It is proper to do so.”

“The Teleri do not think so.”

“They do not think it improper and beside, Macalaurë, you are not a Teler.”

“But I have never even met her father!”

“Barely had I met Laiquiwë—excluding the very awkward instance of being caught naked by him, with his daughter’s legs wrapped around my head—until I asked for his blessing.” His words have the desired effect, and I blush and laugh. “By contrast, your meeting should be relatively easy, I should think.” He stands and, taking my hands, pulls me up beside him. “This is what we shall do, Macalaurë,” he says. “We shall rehearse your meeting. I shall be Lord Lantanén. You shall be yourself. And you shall ask me for my blessings to court my daughter.”

Nelyo rolls his shoulders and tosses his hair aside, and in a moment, wears the soft and plaintive look of a Telerin lord. I giggle.

He looks puzzled. “Do you mock me, Prince Macalaurë?” he asks in a slightly appalled manner.

I bite my lip—suppressing my giggles—and fall silent. I bow carefully. “Lord Lantanén,” I say, “as you might know, I have affections for your daughter.”
“Affections? No, I do not know this.” He contemplates me and shudders. “Hopefully, you are not like your brother in expressing them.”

“Oh, no, no….”

“Then what is it that you have come to ask? Vingarië is not old enough to marry.”

“But courtship—”

Nelyo’s eyebrows spring up. “Courtship?

“Yes, I would like to ask your blessing. On our courtship.”

“You ask my blessing on something that you have already done? So my opinion matters naught?”

“No, it is just…you were fishing…you weren’t here,” I finish lamely, and the next thing I know, Nelyo has charged me, yelling, and knocked me onto the bed, my wind exiting my lungs in a single, painful gust, and he is sitting atop me, laughing.

“Why did you do that?” I snap, and he presses his hand to my heart.

“Well, Macalaurë, it seems that you are still living,” he says, and I can feel my heartbeat against his hand. I scowl at him, and he goes on, “I cannot imagine it being much worse than that, can you? And still, you lived.”

“You are despicable,” I say, but he can see in my eyes that I do not mean it, and he laughs.

“You worry too much, Macalaurë,” he says, rolling off of me to lie beside me on the bed. “Talk to him like you would anyone else. Do not make the issue of your courtship your sole reason for visiting but, rather, try to know him. Speak honestly; ask after his family, and his fishing, and be sincere. Be respectful but warm. He will not refuse his blessings. And, certainly, you have talked enough times to lords of the Noldorin court, and the Teleri are nothing compared to them. You are a son of Fëanaro, and I believe that Atar might be the person in Aman most dreaded to meet for counsel. I think that Eru has given Atar only sons because he feels sorry for the eventual husbands of his daughters.

“Now,” he says, glancing at the silver light of evening beyond our bedroom, “I have much to do before I may sleep. Many chapters to read. May I trust you to be able to do the same?” I nod, and he throws his arms around me in a hug, kissing my nose loudly, before spiriting back across the room to settle at his desk.

“I shall be happy when you are married and settled with the poor girl, Macalaurë,” he teases and turns back to his work.
~oOo~


And so I forgo my usual two-hour study session in the afternoon to walk nervously to the house of Lord Lantanén. Vingarië and I shared a green salad scattered with miniature shrimp for the midday meal, and it is churning in my stomach and rising to burn the back of my throat with scalding bile. I wish that I had eaten nothing at all. And despite drinking a full goblet of wine—which I also regret because my head now feels heavy, and had I gone to study, I likely would have fallen asleep on my papers—my mouth feels as though it is lined with parchment. I can hear my heart pounding in my ears.

Vingarië had hugged me and kissed my cheek when I told her of my intentions. “You are sweet,” she’d said. “I said nothing to him of you and me, but I cannot pledge the same for Turonén and Tindanén.”

I arrive at the courtyard and houses that have now become familiar. Many nights I have spent in that house now, drinking wine with Vingarië in the parlor or playing a game with her and her brothers, an addictive game that involves cards and requires no strategy at all, only luck, at the big table in the dining room. Another afternoon I had spent in her brothers’ bedrooms, looking at their new longbows, passing on the way a closed door that made Tindanén nudge me in the ribs and say, “That is my sister’s chambers. Note its location, for the windows shall be reinforced with steel upon your leaving.”

“We are half-Noldor,” added Turonén, “so do not think us incapable of doing it.”

More nights, I had sat in the parlor with Vingarië, thinking of her bedroom directly overhead (for it was) and wondering what color were her bedclothes and how she looked lying among them, and I had felt a visceral, quivering sensation deep inside my gut that was not unlike the feeling I got when I drank the strong spirits my father gave me at the welcoming feast in Formenos. I’d wanted to offer to follow her to her bedroom and kiss her goodnight, knowing full well that I would behave innocently, but had known somehow that it was nonetheless improper.

And now, I find myself in front of the same house, watching the wind stir the curtains in the room that belongs to Vingarië, feeling as though I have swallowed a lump of hot steel.

I make myself walk the path to the front door. I concentrate on the colors of the flagstones beneath my feet and force myself to step only on the blue-gray ones. That makes it so that I am less aware of the door coming towards me until I am in front of it, watching my fist rise and rap on the door.

A maidservant answers. She smiles and chimes, “Prince Macalaurë!”

Of course. She had played the game with us on some nights, joining us after feigning reluctance and agreeing only after Tindanén had grabbed her hand and pleaded, both of their cheeks flushed pink and their eyes shining in such a way that made Vingarië and Turonén exchange smirking glances.

I nod at her. “Greetings. I was wondering if Lantanén was in?”

“Of course he is! He is exhausted from his trip and will not be returning to counsel until next week.”

“Would you ask if he would see me? If not, I will gladly return—”

“I will see you,” says a deep yet melodic voice from behind the maidservant. She smiles, bows, and steps aside. “He will see you, Macalaurë.”

Part of me had been hoping that she would tell me that he was exhausted from his journey and refusing visitors. I had hoped to be sent away to more days of distraction and agony—but at least, I would be spared for the moment. Like a craven who postpones his torture from fear, I’d hoped to be walking down the street by now, both relieved and tormented.

Instead, my heart pounding at such a frenzied volume and pace that I am convinced he must be able to hear it, I step into the house.

He is taller than I expected, with silver hair darker than most Teleri. He wears the casual clothes of the Teleri: loose white trousers, a blue tunic open to mid-chest, and only a silver scallop shell on a delicate silver chain for jewelry. He leans on the doorframe, a goblet of wine in cupped in his palm. His eyes are bright blue, brighter even than my grandfather’s, and I find it hard to look away from them, so obvious is Vingarië’s resemblance in his face.

He straightens and steps forward, offering his hand in a brusque manner that reminds me of the Noldor, although his accent is lively and musical, like the Teleri. “Prince Macalaurë Fëanorion, I presume?” he says, and I realize that I haven’t introduced myself. I force a smile that feels more like a grimace. I imagine my teeth must look bared, a predator in for the kill, not his daughter’s suitor introducing himself. “Macalaurë Fëanorion, yes, my Lord,” I say in a voice that trembles slightly.

With an amused expression, he replies, “And I am Lord Lantanén, but I am sure that you know that, if you possess the need to visit me.”

“Of course, my lord.”

“Would you like to join me in my study? Where we can speak more comfortably?”

So the Teleri also have studies, I find myself thinking, as I follow him down a hallway, past the parlor where, just the other night, his daughter and I had kissed with a ferocity that made our lips as red as though we had been eating fresh summer berries, and to a set of double doors at the end, where we find ourselves in a room full of windows, overlooking the sea. I am surprised to see that there are no books, no piles of parchments, and no half-finished trinkets. There are a few baskets of shells on one shelf and a partially mended fishing net. On his desk are several scrolls, a chunk of driftwood, a quill, and nothing else. The windows are open, and the room is freshened by a brisk breeze off the sea. Lord Lantanén offers me a chair and, without asking, pours me a glass of white wine.

“How fares your father?” he asks, putting the glass into my hand, and I hear myself answer, going on at length about his work and his affairs, while Lantanén settles himself into a chair opposite mine, until I realize that I am talking quickly and breathlessly and repeating the same things that I said to start, and I abruptly shut my mouth.

Lantanén looks at me with raised eyebrows, and I feel my face warming. I had halted in the middle of a sentence. “Your father’s work with crystals?” he prompts, perhaps thinking that I had lost my thought in the middle of the sentence, and that is why I had stopped speaking. I feel my face redden further. My heartbeat is a roar. A small voice that sounds like I imagine one might sound while drowning is screaming that I am failing miserably.

“I am sorry, my lord,” I say. “I realized that I had told you already of that.”

“Your father’s work is always a delight to me. I will be glad to hear of it as many times as you wish to tell of it.”

I realize, with a start, that he is trying to calm me: His voice is slow and unusually kind; this is how Atar and Nelyo speak to frightened colts just weaned, stroking their necks and reassuring them that they will not be harmed by their shadows.

I take a deep breath and a sip of wine. It is good, sweet and crisp, and I quickly take another. “Thank you for your kindness, but I do not wish to bore you,” I say. “Rather I should say that my brother Maitimo sends his greetings and asks after your lovely wife.”

“My lovely wife is well, as always, although I wish that she was less attached to that city of yours. I miss her in Alqualondë, in the winters, while she remains in Tirion.”

I wonder: Will Vingarië and I become like that one day? I know it is not unusual for couples long wed and no longer bringing children to the world to spend time apart, but I cannot imagine packing my things and riding to Tirion without her. I think of sleeping beneath the same stars but apart, in different cities, while our children grow and shuffle between us to spend equal time. And then I think, with alarm: Will Amil and Atar live that way one day? Will I go to Amil and she will inquire after Atar like one asks after an old and oft-forgotten friend?

There is a moment of silence, but it is not awkward, as Lantanén is drinking his wine, and I am lost in thought. It occurs to me that I could become used to this, to quiet afternoons in a study such as this, with the silence outweighing the words, sharing wine and company. Time in Atar’s study is always filled with discussion—frantic gesturing hands, competing voices—that metamorphoses easily into argument, amid the clutter that seems to fill his life. As much as I love my father and my time with him, I realize that I could learn to love this too.

In fact, I already do.

Lantanén speaks next. “Macalaurë, you did not come to tell me of your father’s crystals, nor to ask after my wife.”

“No,” I say softly, “I did not.” I take a sip of wine for courage. “I love your daughter,” I say.

Those were not the words I meant to say. I meant to be delicate and elusive, as Nelyo would be. I meant to use gentle metaphors in place of the brutal truth of it: That I will choose to live alone if one day Vingarië will not consent to be my wife.

But horror has only the briefest chance to flash across my thoughts before Lantanén chuckles and says, “I know. I would have seen it in your eyes, even if Tindanén did not let it slip at breakfast this morning.” I watch his face carefully for signs of emotion, for something lurking beneath his kindly grin. But there is none, no deception, only joy.

“I see in your eyes,” he says, “what I see in mine, for I also love Vingarië. When she was born, and I held my baby daughter in my arms for the first time, I knew what it meant when poets say that they would die for someone. For my wife, for my sons, the thought never crossed my mind, but for Vingarië, my first thought was: I would die for her.

“I see that also in your eyes, Macalaurë.”

“Yes,” I gasp.

“As you know, it is not the tradition of the Teleri to ask for a parent’s blessing upon a courtship. But I respect that it is the custom of your people, and I admire your courage in coming here today.” He offers his hand to me, and stunned, I take it. “Macalaurë Fëanorion, if you treat my daughter to the love that she deserves, then I will end each day with a prayer that you and she shall wed and find the happiness that eludes so many.”

“I will. I would die for her,” I whisper.

“I know,” he says with a smile, “and so I give my blessing.”
~oOo~

That afternoon, I am distracted in my theory lecture for a different reason: I am trying to capture Vingarië’s attention and signal that my meeting with her father went well, that he gave his blessing. Unfortunately, she is quite absorbed in writing the lecturer’s every word upon a parchment, pausing only to answer his inquiries, when he chooses her from the group. Luckily, I am so absorbed in trying to catch her attention that I haven’t time for daydreams, and when the lecturer calls my name, thinking that he is surprising me, I answer with haste—and correctly.

“Excellent, Macalaurë,” he says, unable to keep the disbelief from his voice.

I wait for her outside the lecture room. “You never looked up!” I accuse.

“I didn’t want to know until we had time to talk,” she replies, kissing me on the lips and earning a scowl from the lecturer, who is just passing, and a mutter about the impertinence of romance at such a young age.

“He gave it!” I tell her. “He gave his blessing!”

She laughs with glee and clasps me in a choking hug. “Oh, Macalaurë! Now it shall be nothing to ask his permission for marriage!” Realizing what she has said, she backs away quickly, her fingers over her mouth. “Oh! I meant not to say that! You do not have to marry me! Oh, why do I always say such things?” Her face has turned an alarming scarlet color. “Next thing,” she says derisively, “I’ll be naming our three children—”

“Three?” I exclaim. “I had thought we would have four!”

With a giggle, she takes my arm, and we amble from the building, pressed close enough together that walking is awkward and a scribe in a hurry rushes around us, muttering to himself about the wonders of the leisurely behavior of those who are not constantly presented with deadlines. We have a stack of assignments to complete before the lecture tomorrow, but neither of us mentions it and we head, instead, for the fountain.

“Four children,” she muses, once we settle. “Two boys and two girls. The first, though,” she says, with a bright glint in her eye, “will be a daughter.”

A vendor selling fresh raspberries passes, and I signal for a basket. He hands them to me and disappears quickly, with a nod and a smile, before I can even press pearls into his hand for payment, saying something about a gift to the celebration of new love. I pop a berry into her mouth and say, “It sounds lovely.” Her eyes close as the sweet juiciness of the berry explodes inside her mouth, and I kiss her. Her lips are warm, and she tastes of berries.

“You do realize, Macalaurë,” she says, as we snack on berries, “that we will have to bond.”

I pause for a moment, my mouth open, and a berry falls from my lips and into the fountain. Realizing her words, she flushes an alarming scarlet. “I did not mean it like that. Of course you know that; that is how children are made. But rather that….” She stops and hides her face in her hands.

“Rather what, Vingarië?” I say.

She says something behind her hands that I cannot comprehend.

“Vingarië, I cannot—”

She says it again, louder. “It is just that I have always been afraid. Of bonding. That it might hurt.” She takes away her hands and looks me in the face, to appraise my reaction.

“I will be gentle,” I say, and now we both blush and turn away from each other.

After several long minutes of awkward silence, she says, “It is many years away,” at the same moment as I say, “We can have a long engagement.”

We turn back to each other, our cheeks dimmed to pink, and tearfully, she says, “You mean that, Macalaurë? You would not mind?”

“I will wait until the ending of Arda for you, Vingarië, if that is what you wished.”

“I hope it shall not come to that,” she says. “But…but I would like a long engagement. I know your father married young, and your brother hopes to marry young, but all of this is so sudden: my love, my feelings for you. I never expected to love a man, much less to wish for marriage and children, and I always thought the pain of bonding and childbirth would belong to other women, never to me.” She lays her head on my shoulder. “But I would endure far worse for you, Macalaurë.”

I would die for you.

I shiver. Such promises should not be made lightly, but I feel as though they were made long before we were born, by something greater than us, and that we are merely reciting what is meant to be.

I hold her, and she lays her head on my chest. A year ago, also, I would have laughed openly at the suggestion that I should wish for a wife and four children with a greater ferocity than I wished for anything else. My attitudes of that time seem to belong to another person. Never would I have imagined that that feast in the forest that I had attended months ago with Nelyo, full of the empty, youthful hope for love that I never expected to discover—after all, who could love an aberration like me?—would be realized, that when I sat down beside the dark-and-silver-haired girl with the flute and we smiled wordlessly at each other, that I was looking upon the woman who might one day be my wife.

With Vingarië safe in the circle of my arms, I close my eyes and imagine our life, our future. I imagine our house here in Alqualondë, our bedroom open to the sea, lying on the crisp white sheets of our bed. I feel again the warm quiver inside to think of undressing her and making love to her, our cries mingling with the roar of the sea, her small, pale body soft beneath my hands, her kisses on my naked skin. A flush heats my face, but she cannot see it: Her face in pressed into my chest, her arms circling me, her hands pressing my back, warm through my tunic.

A little girl runs past us, chasing a tern that has stolen a piece of bread from her basket, crying out in protest and laughing at the same time, and my heart beats faster to think of the daughter that Vingarië foresees, and I feel her arms tighten around me. I imagine the house again, but I have trouble imagining a daughter there or any children at all, just Vingarië and me and the sound of the sea.
  • Oh, Dawn, this is a fabulous chapter! There was nothing wrong with the previous one either, but now I can see how the two fit together to make the whole, and when it has been revised it will be wonderful. There are many, many things I love about this chapter, but I will just mention a few. Your descriptions of Alqualondë and the Telerin people are delightful and my stomach lurched on quite a few occasions when I felt as if I had been transported there. One of the ways that you accomplish this so well is in your descriptions of the their food. I think the image of Macalaurë and Vingarië sitting eating salmon wraps by the fountain will stay with me forever.

    One of my favourite parts was this:

    I bite my lip—suppressing my giggles—and fall silent. I bow carefully. “Lord Lantanén,” I say, “as you might know, I have affections for your daughter.”
    “Affections? No, I do not know this.” He contemplates me and shudders. “Hopefully, you are not like your brother in expressing them.”

    “Oh, no, no….”


    This was wonderful! Lord Lantanén is quite the master of subtlety! I am sure he would make a great father-in-law.

    I love Vingarië's brothers too! They are hilarious!

    And I love this part:

    I make myself walk the path to the front door. I concentrate on the colors of the flagstones beneath my feet and force myself to step only on the blue-gray ones. That makes it so that I am less aware of the door coming towards me until I am in front of it, watching my fist rise and rap on the door.

    I've walked like that myself to keep my mind off of something. This is a great example of the realism that you have brought to this story! But OMG, this is the best part of all!

    “You do realize, Macalaurë,” she says, as we snack on berries, “that we will have to bond.”

    I pause for a moment, my mouth open, and a berry falls from my lips and into the fountain. Realizing her words, she flushes an alarming scarlet. “I did not mean it like that. Of course you know that; that is how children are made. But rather that….” She stops and hides her face in her hands.

    “Rather what, Vingarië?” I say.

    She says something behind her hands that I cannot comprehend.

    “Vingarië, I cannot—”

    She says it again, louder. “It is just that I have always been afraid. Of bonding. That it might hurt.” She takes away her hands and looks me in the face, to appraise my reaction.

    “I will be gentle,” I say, and now we both blush and turn away from each other.


    You have captured that spark, that essence, of two young lovers absorbed completely in each other so well! Honestly, I had a tear in my eye as I read it and remembered - yes, remembered! - just how it was way, way, back when I was in the same situation. My Gods, girl, you have a masterpiece here.

    Of course, the scenes between Macalaurë and Nelyo are also wonderful. They are very moving in their affection for each other. The stuff you need to revise is only technical. It has certainly not affected how you have been able to move your readers emotionally.






    • *is speechless* Jenni, thank you so much! Truth be told, I've been in the doldrums about this whole Macalaure section. I've been pissed at myself for not looking at it sooner, knowing that it needed work, but just assuming that I could pull of a chapter of revisions per week with no problem. I've been having lots of "Dawn, you suck" moments. ;) Which is why I didn't even drag this chapter out until yesterday afternoon and was half-prepared to post that there wouldn't be a chapter this week.

      But then I read it...and it wasn't half-bad. It still feels awkward to me in places, like I'm trying to find my voice again, but that'll be pretty easy to take care of during revisions. :)

      Your descriptions of Alqualondë and the Telerin people are delightful and my stomach lurched on quite a few occasions when I felt as if I had been transported there.

      *squee!bounce!* I don't know if I've mentioned it to you before, but one of the things I'm trying to do in my whole collection of stories is establish a feel for each place I visit. I have this picture of Alqualonde in my head...I love the bit in The Sil about the arch of sea-carved rock and the lamps in the streets; I love the thought of the constant half-light and the lamplight on the water. I love the sea; I have sea-longing, just like an Elf, and the thought alone of Alqualonde makes me want to pack up and head for the ocean. And I'm trying to put this--as well as the more concrete images that I have of the place--into my stories.

      I don't think I'm all the way there yet; vivid settings are new to me along with the fantasy genre, but it's getting there. :)

      I've walked like that myself to keep my mind off of something.

      Me too! I'm the master of psyching myself out when I don't want to do something...which is quite often. ;)

      You have captured that spark, that essence, of two young lovers absorbed completely in each other so well! Honestly, I had a tear in my eye as I read it and remembered - yes, remembered! - just how it was way, way, back when I was in the same situation.

      Macalaure and Vingarie are a lot of fun for me to write because they're so different from the other couples in this story, who are all fire and passion and angst and sordid romance...but Macalaure and Vingarie are so young and innocent in their love. It's a nice change for a perv like me to try to capture the essence of this sort of love.

      I remember too, maybe that's why I can write it well. :) I remember being 15 (the equivalent age of Macalaure and Vingarie) and being in love with Bobby and having all these plans for our lives and what we would do...and this great unknown, too, because I'd yet to learn about marriage and sex and sharing my entire life with a person. It was thrilling and scary...but we plunged on ahead, fearless anyway. That's kind of how I see Macalaure and Vingarie.

      *huggles them*

      I'm going to enjoy those two in stories to come, I think. :)

      Thank you again for your kind words and for a much-needed boost of confidence! Next week's chapter is only half-written--the latter half got eaten by RamBo during his death throes--so hopefully, it'll keep up.

      And then Nelyo's section...then the epilogue...and....

      *refuses to think about that*
      • Personally, I think that Macalaurë is great fun to write. After AMC and your original novel, I will be awaiting your Maglor fic with great pleasure. But for now I cannot believe that you are this close to the end of AMC! I know you said you were, but I just cannot imagine it!
  • I second Jenni when saying that this chapter is wonderful and it does not need too much revision. In fact, it's great just the way it is and it would be a shame if you change it too much. The "feel" of Alqualonde is back along with all those little details that distinguish your writing and give it such a strong sense of reality. I was drawn right in, form the first to the last paragraph.

    Of course, the creepy sense of foreboding has reared its head in the chapter, too. Like here:

    Who says we have until the world’s ending?

    here:

    And then I think, with alarm: Will Amil and Atar live that way one day? Will I go to Amil and she will inquire after Atar like one asks after an old and oft-forgotten friend?

    and here:

    It seems that I belong nowhere. Perhaps I should wander, as do the great bards of lore, with nothing but my harp and the clothes upon my body, singing hymns to the sea.

    This paragraph is scary... o_O!

    Once, I’d seen Nelyo in the square as I sat with Vingarië, eating my midday meal. The streets had been crowded, but if my brother is easily spotted in Tirion, then he is impossible to miss in Alqualondë. He’d stood a head taller than the tallest of the Teleri swarming around him, and his hair had blazed like fire in the midday brilliance.

    Simply beautiful... I could just see him towering above the sea of silver Telerin heads. :)

    I think that Eru has given Atar only sons because he feels sorry for the eventual husbands of his daughters.

    Lol! Priceless... And spot on. Just think of the horror a potential suitor would be plagued by if Feany would have had a daughter AND his seven sons. I think she'd have stayed unmarried, because nobody would have had the gall to face all eight of them.

    Aww... The interaction between the brothers was sweet and wonderful, as it always is. The way you've pictured them together is very inspiring for me. (in both G and NC-17 ways, because a perv always remains one!) Excellent job, I loved every bit of it.
    • The "feel" of Alqualonde is back along with all those little details that distinguish your writing and give it such a strong sense of reality.

      Awesome! This is part of what I'm trying to do in this series of stories: to give each place its own feel. When I think of them in my head, it's like each place has its own color and emotion: Tirion, Alqualonde, Formenos, Taniquetil, Himring...I'm trying to bring out not only the physical details that distinguish each for me but the feeling of each too.

      One of the things I've discovered that I love about the fantasy genre that I never had in my "literary" pursuits is setting: the chance to go to--and take readers to--these fantastic places. And I've only scratched the surface in my Silmfic.

      I'm not entirely happy with how I've captured Alqualonde, but I'm a newby, and it'll just be a bit of tweaking, I think. And I recognize that I am very hard on myself with this, as well. :)

      Of course, the creepy sense of foreboding has reared its head in the chapter, too.

      But of course! It's me! What's a light and happy tale without some dark foreshadowing. ;) Besides, it should be obvious that Macalaure and Vingarie have an unhappy bout in their life together. I certainly don't have her wandering the shores alongside him.

      But that's all I'm saying about that. >:^)

      So writing about them is bittersweet for me because I know their ending and I want to keep them forever in this time, when they are so full of happiness and hope. But, of course, I can't.

      The way you've pictured them together is very inspiring for me. (in both G and NC-17 ways, because a perv always remains one!)

      Lol! As I was reading the part where Nelyo tackles Macalaure on the bed, I was thinking, "Well, Jenni and Alina are going to have a bit of fun with that." Jenni didn't mention it, but you did, and so I am not disappointed! >:^))

      Thank you so much for all of your kind words. I typed my whole sob-story in Jenni's comment above, but trust that everyone's help and encouragement has been fantastic at this part of the story when I seriously just wanted to have nothing to do with it. The illness and injury and lack of motivation...I wanted to hide this story in the depths of my computer and forget about it for a few months. But I think I'm through the worst of it, and I thank you for your encouragement. :)
  • Ahhhhhh! Chord progressions! Oh, I remember having to learn those! All those everlasting rules. I bet that if you were to wake me up in the middle of the night, I'd either hit your or mumble "one. . . four. . . five. . . five-seven. . . one," and go back to sleep. Beginning theory (chord progressions are pretty basic) is the pits, but once you know it, it's a useful tool to have.

    Sounds like Macalaurë is adapting well to being in a schoolroom. And the food carts in the courtyard. . . I love that detail, because there are about a dozen food carts that take up residence on the mall just outside the music building at the University in fair weather. Sometimes I get sushi.

    So, is Macalaurë taking instrument lessons? He seems pretty good on harp -- does he have a voice teacher, too, or is he picking up another instrument? He and Vingarië might be able to make "use" of a practice room -- it's a standing music-school joke, probably common to all music schools, that the practice rooms get used for more than just instrument practice.
    • Ahhhhhh! Chord progressions! Oh, I remember having to learn those!

      Me too! That's about as far as I got in learning music theory before deciding that I had to give up some hobbies--writing, drawing, guitar, and skating simply weren't working in my school/work schedule--and guitar went out the window. Not literally, of course. ;)

      Sounds like Macalaurë is adapting well to being in a schoolroom. And the food carts in the courtyard. . . I love that detail, because there are about a dozen food carts that take up residence on the mall just outside the music building at the University in fair weather.

      *envies* UMBC had a draconian policy that only the Wood Company could serve food on campus. So when we had our book/bake sale for the literary magazine, we had to get permission from Wood to sell our brownies and homemade lollipops. (One guess who brought the homemade lollipops!) Of course, the Wood Company was comfortable with this monopoly...and with charging an arm and a leg for their subpar food.

      I just see the Teleri more as street vendors, unlike the Noldor or Vanyar, who probably think this is weird or even a little icky.

      So, is Macalaurë taking instrument lessons? He seems pretty good on harp -- does he have a voice teacher, too, or is he picking up another instrument?

      I'm having him do harp and voice. Since you've given me such great information on how music schools really work, I'm going to add more on this during revision.

      He and Vingarië might be able to make "use" of a practice room -- it's a standing music-school joke, probably common to all music schools, that the practice rooms get used for more than just instrument practice.

      *snickers* That's good to know, and I will keep it in mind!

      I have several more scenes that I want to add, but I haven't had time to write them, with this section needing so much revision, and so they'll make their debut in Draft Two.
      • Oh, he'll have a great time with the voice teacher. The three years that I took voice lessons taught me so much more than I could ever have learned just by singing in choirs and on my own. Singing is such an internal skill -- it's just you and your body, no external instrument to manipulate -- that voice lessons are slightly different from other instrument lessons. Voice teachers tend to be much more personally involved with their students, just because they ask about, need to know about, and occasionally need to manipulate the student's torso. They do become rather concerned with the health of their students, since a cold (which Elves don't get, but still) alters vocal production, and emotional upsets also alter the functioning of the instrument.

        My voice lessons dramatically expanded my self-confidence at a time when I desperately needed it. I think it was the sensation of producing music all on my own, with nothing other than my own body to stand between me and the audience, that opened me up. That and the fact that my voice teacher was one of the most cheerful, optimistic people I knew. He was also something of a friendly perv (flamingly gay, too, which made it even funnier) who really taught me that the difference between a good dirty joke and sexual harassment was all in the timing. I still giggle about a couple of things he told me.

        The University is a state school, and the state has, for a while, been making noises about contracting all campus food service out to a certain provider. People then point out that this would prevent the University from selling its own, freshly made, campus-local, highly addictive ice cream. The state legislators, who have themselves been known to stop off at the Union for fudge ripple, then put the measure on the back burner. And then the food contractor brings it up again. And so the cycle goes.

        You know, something just occurred to me: societies with lots of street vendors, such as the Romans or the Teleri, tend to have a very low rate of home cooking. Rome, I think, was concerned about house fires spreading and limited the amount of cooking that could be done indoors. That led to the rise of a culture of street vendors selling fresh, hot, cheap food on every corner. If the Teleri have so many vendors, it might say something about their home cooking skills as compared to the Noldor, who you've already described as being very involved gourmet cooks. Just a little cultural difference that might crop up between Macalaurë and Vingarië later on.
  • You know what I was just reminded of? My director writing syllables on the board. "To", "ta", "ti", and......"tit" *snerk* Then of course, we would practice saying the syllables. I tell you, I never saw the man play an instrument, but damn could he say "tittytittytitty" fast!!!

    Not the best thing to have a room full of immature teenagers practice! (Thank god trombones sit in the back!!)

    It seems that I belong nowhere. Perhaps I should wander, as do the great bards of lore, with nothing but my harp and the clothes upon my body, singing hymns to the sea.

    *smack* Or maybe you shouldn't!!

    Nice, as always!
    • Then of course, we would practice saying the syllables. I tell you, I never saw the man play an instrument, but damn could he say "tittytittytitty" fast!!!

      Okay, that's just straight-up freaky! :^D

      Your band director strikes me as one of those people who could never be written as a character in a story simply because people would scoff and toss the book aside and say, "You expect me to buy that? No one is really like that!"

      Still, your band director calls to mind my favorite exclamation of dismay that I use all of the time on Bobby: Wow. That's profound. :^P

      *smack* Or maybe you shouldn't!!

      Great, now you've made the muses cry.... ;)
      • No one is really like that!

        Lol!! True! I think the unbelievability is how he keeps his job!

        Wow. That's profound. :^P

        LOL!! I say that too!!! GMTA!

        Great, now you've made the muses cry....

        It seems to be a particular talent of mine.
  • I think here we are with the AMC-feeling again. As I said, I don't think last week's chapter was bad, but it's somehow been lacking that certain feeling I can't place.

    Macalaure and Vingarie are so cute together (Ha! I haven't been using that word for faaaar to long...). It must be kind of hard for Nelyo to watch this.

    Perhaps I should wander, as do the great bards of lore, with nothing but my harp and the clothes upon my body, singing hymns to the sea.

    Oops. Don't say things like that.

    I imagine the house again, but I have trouble imagining a daughter there or any children at all, just Vingarië and me and the sound of the sea.

    And don't say anything like that either. (Though my little inner lover of tragedy tells me she adores that paragraph...)

    Wonderful chapter. And I think I like Vingarie's father a lot.
    • Thank you! :) I'm not wholly satisfied with this chapter, but it's better than last week's travesty chapter. And I agree that it feels more like AMC.

      Vingarie's family and the Telerin people have been really fun for me because I'm so used to the Noldor and their culture that I practically am one. (I'm sure you know what it's like to have Noldor poking their noses into every aspect of your life! ;^D) But anyway, my point was that the Teleri are a refreshing, fun change.

      It must be kind of hard for Nelyo to watch this.

      I'd imagine his feelings are really mixed right now: He wants his brother to be happy, but it only underscores his own unhappiness. I think that's why he ran away when he saw Macalaure and Vingarie in the square at Tirion.

      And don't say anything like that either. (Though my little inner lover of tragedy tells me she adores that paragraph...)

      *cackles evolly* >:^))
  • Awwwww, their talk about bonding is so cute :)

    A year ago, also, I would have laughed openly at the suggestion that I should wish for a wife and four children with a greater ferocity than I wished for anything else. My attitudes of that time seem to belong to another person.

    Quite true Maglor, in that sense you grew very fast. I remember reading in the earlier chapters of AMC that he indeed could not imagine that. That is also why I think, with his train of thoughts (wanting to know how she looks under the sheets, how to undress her and such), he won't be afraid of bonding anymore :) I find it so hard to read that Vingarië dreads the same fate as Miriel. I feel so sorry for her.

    Some parts, eugh, I had tears in my eyes:

    Who says we have until the world’s ending?

    I shake my head. It is as though Laurelin had dimmed for a moment, but that cannot be. I blink and smile and force myself to forget it.


    or

    It seems that I belong nowhere. Perhaps I should wander, as do the great bards of lore, with nothing but my harp and the clothes upon my body, singing hymns to the sea.

    *snif* This suddenly feels way too cruel to me. Yet, Tolkien does this to him.

    Yet again, great moment between Nelyo and Macalaurë, especially this part:

    “No, it is just…you were fishing…you weren’t here,” I finish lamely, and the next thing I know, Nelyo has charged me, yelling, and knocked me onto the bed, my wind exiting my lungs in a single, painful gust, and he is sitting atop me, laughing.

    LOL!

    Oh an this made me laugh so hard:
    You are a son of Fëanaro, and I believe that Atar might be the person in Aman most dreaded to meet for counsel. I think that Eru has given Atar only sons because he feels sorry for the eventual husbands of his daughters.

    So true lmao!

    Yet again, I simply love Vingarië's brothers. I sincerly hope you have plans for them as well. This part should come with a beverage alert:
    Another afternoon I had spent in her brothers’ bedrooms, looking at their new longbows, passing on the way a closed door that made Tindanén nudge me in the ribs and say, “That is my sister’s chambers. Note its location, for the windows shall be reinforced with steel upon your leaving.”

    And suddenly Maglor becomes much alike Celegorm when he blurts out:
    “No,” I say softly, “I did not.” I take a sip of wine for courage. “I love your daughter,” I say.

    Those were not the words I meant to say. I meant to be delicate and elusive, as Nelyo would be. I meant to use gentle metaphors in place of the brutal truth of it: That I will choose to live alone if one day Vingarië will not consent to be my wife.


    I would have loved to see his look on his face. In this chapter, nothing goes as it should go and this chapter also made me wonder how Lord Lantanén met his wife and obviously could not wait 'bonding' with his wife before they were married... oh! I would love to read that. This is by no means not intended to sic another plotbunny on you by the way.

    A fabulous chapter Dawn!
    • Ack I almost forgot... heh

      I do not see Nelyo much. Usually, when I return late at night, exhausted, from having bid Vingarië a good night (which never takes less than two hours), he is studying by lamplight.

      Just two hours Maglor??? *grin*

      some glimmer in Nelyo’s eyes that begged me, please do not ask why I ignored you.

      The whole scene made me wonder if Nelyo was hiding for someone, maybe another father of a Telerin maiden who was made promises too? Hmmm, given their culture, it will be a no.

      But it can't be that he doesn't want to meet Vingarië... right?

      Now I am really done, for now ;)
      • Just two hours Maglor??? *grin*

        Hey, some say he's the most restrained of the Feanorions....

        (How many hours would Tyelko take, do you think? :^D)

        But it can't be that he doesn't want to meet Vingarië... right?

        No, I don't think it's that he doesn't want to meet Vingarie. I think it's more that he was probably depressed and saw his brother and Vingarie very happy, and rather than chance darkening their joy with his misfortune, he chose to scuttle away instead.

        At least, that's what I had in mind when I wrote it, iirc. ;)

        Although, knowing Nelyo, he's got a few old flames in Alqualonde too!
    • That is also why I think, with his train of thoughts (wanting to know how she looks under the sheets, how to undress her and such), he won't be afraid of bonding anymore :)

      I think he could find something to like about it. ;)

      I patterned Macalaure a lot after myself, actually. I also insisted that I would never want to "tie" myself to another person through marriage. I thought I'd always be alone. Then I fell in love, of course. ;)

      I find it so hard to read that Vingarië dreads the same fate as Miriel.

      I wonder if it wasn't on the minds of all mothers after Miriel. It had happened, been made possible...surely, Miriel wouldn't have been able to fathom such a thing, prior to conceiving Feanor.

      Especially, I think, it must have been foremost in the thoughts of the wives of the Feanorions.

      Yet again, I simply love Vingarië's brothers. I sincerly hope you have plans for them as well.

      I do. I can never let a character lie! Everyone from geeky ol' Vorondil to the healer in Formenos has a fate in this story. I haven't entirely settled on the fates of T&T, but the idea of half-Noldo, half-Teler lads whose sister is married to the son of the guy who started the kinslaying...that bunny's too big to pass up! ;)

      This is by no means not intended to sic another plotbunny on you by the way.

      *giggles* Suuuure.... ;^D

      Actually, the two of them do fascinate me because they seem to have had obvious, strong love...yet now they live apart, a bit like Nerdanel and Feanor. So I wonder what happened...or is it just the normal course of things? And I wonder how their separation will influence Macalaure's thoughts on his parents' later estrangement.

      Thanks, Rhapsy, now you've made me mull it over and there is a bunny hopping into the room....

      *hides*
      • I thought I'd always be alone. Then I fell in love, of course. ;)

        Love does that to you. :c)

        Especially, I think, it must have been foremost in the thoughts of the wives of the Feanorions.

        I fully agree!

        Thanks, Rhapsy, now you've made me mull it over and there is a bunny hopping into the room....

        I am known for that... :c)

        Happy writings!

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